Post by smashbro on May 6, 2009 16:01:01 GMT -5
alright, everyone else is making one, so why not me, eh? I'm barely on anymore...but maybe this will give insight on why. I'm just gonna use this to put my thoughts down and maybe people will actually read it, unlike...well, thats for the blog.
[glow=green,2,300]~~~BLOG~~~[/glow]
May 6, 2009~Well, i joined this site...some day a while ago, it was in the fall, and I wanted somewhere to talk about brawl. And be part of a community. I felt like I had no true friends, and so went to see if I could find some.
Today, I still don't think I have a true friend.
If you're reading this for a happy story, stop right now. Seriously here i will complain, be depressed, and whine at times. Kinda like my thread in Gurus after I came back from Atlanta. But no one would know. No one read it. Or at least no one replied.
So yeah, came on here looking for a community. I was lucky enough to join in the very early stages, so that I was able to get into the main group. It was a place of salvation for me. It was my happy place. <sigh>
So yeah, comment below if you want me to answer any quetions, stupid or serious...who am I kidding, you guys will only give stupid questions. And if it souns like im attacking or demeaning you i don't mean too. All I want to do is give you a different view.
I want to add more but can't think of anything right now. I'll keep adding my favorite songs, and whatever. Ehh, I feel tired.
I guess that's enough for now. So till later...
>--turns off computer--<
May 10, 2009~Hmm. Got back from the robotics competition, that's why I wasn't on on Friday or Saturday. But to be honest...I hadn't been on much anyways. I just came to do the blog (which no one is reading) and the rp (which I am not so much part of anymore but everyone reads).
But it was the same as always at robotics. Dissappointment, sorrow, and false hope...in more ways than one. I won't bother explaining everything to you guys, old members should already know, and new members...I'll tell you if you really want me to. But seeing as no one is reading, it won't matter. I just...It made me realize (again) how much I want to be different than who I am.
You guys, the old members, who knew smashbro when this site was early on, thats who I want to be. I want to be listened to, respected, and just overall kinda important. Important enough to not be forgotten. Now on the site, it isn't anything with you guys, but I haven't been on as much, and therefore I'm not as important.
I just get frustrated when I don't feel like anyone cares, or wants to put in time to help me. I do feel kinda selfish when I say this, but I have given a lot of time to the peopel I know here, and just wish they would reciprocate.
That being said I want to change. When I go off to college in a year, I'll be putting more time on here, seeing as I won't be living with my family anymore. So hopefully I can get back into it then.
So yeah, if anyone reads this, it would be great to know...reply, or pm, or anything to let me know you've read and care. So, till later...
>--turns off computer--<
EDIT: Thank you whoever voted, but it would be nice to know who you are, I can't see who voted anymore.
[glow=green,2,300]~~~BLOG~~~[/glow]
May 6, 2009~Well, i joined this site...some day a while ago, it was in the fall, and I wanted somewhere to talk about brawl. And be part of a community. I felt like I had no true friends, and so went to see if I could find some.
Today, I still don't think I have a true friend.
If you're reading this for a happy story, stop right now. Seriously here i will complain, be depressed, and whine at times. Kinda like my thread in Gurus after I came back from Atlanta. But no one would know. No one read it. Or at least no one replied.
So yeah, came on here looking for a community. I was lucky enough to join in the very early stages, so that I was able to get into the main group. It was a place of salvation for me. It was my happy place. <sigh>
So yeah, comment below if you want me to answer any quetions, stupid or serious...who am I kidding, you guys will only give stupid questions. And if it souns like im attacking or demeaning you i don't mean too. All I want to do is give you a different view.
I want to add more but can't think of anything right now. I'll keep adding my favorite songs, and whatever. Ehh, I feel tired.
I guess that's enough for now. So till later...
>--turns off computer--<
May 10, 2009~Hmm. Got back from the robotics competition, that's why I wasn't on on Friday or Saturday. But to be honest...I hadn't been on much anyways. I just came to do the blog (which no one is reading) and the rp (which I am not so much part of anymore but everyone reads).
But it was the same as always at robotics. Dissappointment, sorrow, and false hope...in more ways than one. I won't bother explaining everything to you guys, old members should already know, and new members...I'll tell you if you really want me to. But seeing as no one is reading, it won't matter. I just...It made me realize (again) how much I want to be different than who I am.
You guys, the old members, who knew smashbro when this site was early on, thats who I want to be. I want to be listened to, respected, and just overall kinda important. Important enough to not be forgotten. Now on the site, it isn't anything with you guys, but I haven't been on as much, and therefore I'm not as important.
I just get frustrated when I don't feel like anyone cares, or wants to put in time to help me. I do feel kinda selfish when I say this, but I have given a lot of time to the peopel I know here, and just wish they would reciprocate.
That being said I want to change. When I go off to college in a year, I'll be putting more time on here, seeing as I won't be living with my family anymore. So hopefully I can get back into it then.
So yeah, if anyone reads this, it would be great to know...reply, or pm, or anything to let me know you've read and care. So, till later...
>--turns off computer--<
EDIT: Thank you whoever voted, but it would be nice to know who you are, I can't see who voted anymore.
smashbro ~~~ Authority: 20 ~~~ Combat: 10
