Post by ness11 on Nov 8, 2009 15:25:25 GMT -5
As most of you know, our dear friend Lloyd has left the forum. However, unlike our members who have come and gone in the day he did not leave like the rest. No, while many members left of anger, Lloyd left due to dread and sorrow dealt by the biggest jerk I've ever known: myself.
Lloyd if you can hear me I just want to let you know that I am deeply sorry and have my most sincere condolences. I acted the way I did out of blind anger and rage; but I also wanted to help you so people like me wouldn't step on you. I wanted to help you gain a skill that wouldn't just help you here but in real life. But I was wrong for trying to force you to change, especially for the manner I attempted to do so.
I can not explain why I was angry, maybe it was because of the people I was hanging out with the whole day, but that does not justify my action in any light. Part of me says I had to do something because I felt mythed that certain friends of mine were cut and you stayed, but that is false because I agreed to it beforehand. I am sorry to those of my friends, I knew you were going to be cut, but was too cowardly to say anything about it. I, was the one who dropped the ball.
I realize now that people are the way they are because they want to be, and I should not attempt, let alone force in a scolding fashion like I did. I again will state that I am not aware of why I was so frustrated, I assume it was a combination of irritating issues that could have been channeled out but at the same time couldn't. Perhaps it was that I was frustrated that you could do things that I could not, but even I am not sure of that; and I don't care even if you can or can't.
You have always treated me as an equal no matter what I did, no matter the scrutiny. You were unparrel friendly to me, something that I shrugged at. I just saw you as someone who was not stern enough or strict enough to make decisions; you seemed to dance around a topic but never really take sides, not even neutral. Maybe you just didn't care, but I sufficiently doubt that. I just wanted to help you, my goal was not to make you leave but just so you could become a better person.
All I can plead for now is that you forgive me and come back for the sake of the forum but more importantly your friends. What I did was wrong, you were scarred off the forum which was against my only duty as a mod. I am a failure to modship, but if I were to have one last wish is to have you come back. I never asked anyone to comeback after they quit, not even Peram. Key, Angel, Ghost, Kune, they all want you to comeback not just me, and that's not all. I will welcome you back with open arms, atone for what I did, never force you to change who you are (unless you want to of course).
So please, please Lloyd, come back.
EDIT: I forgot the retract option. If you change your vote just post here.
Lloyd if you can hear me I just want to let you know that I am deeply sorry and have my most sincere condolences. I acted the way I did out of blind anger and rage; but I also wanted to help you so people like me wouldn't step on you. I wanted to help you gain a skill that wouldn't just help you here but in real life. But I was wrong for trying to force you to change, especially for the manner I attempted to do so.
I can not explain why I was angry, maybe it was because of the people I was hanging out with the whole day, but that does not justify my action in any light. Part of me says I had to do something because I felt mythed that certain friends of mine were cut and you stayed, but that is false because I agreed to it beforehand. I am sorry to those of my friends, I knew you were going to be cut, but was too cowardly to say anything about it. I, was the one who dropped the ball.
I realize now that people are the way they are because they want to be, and I should not attempt, let alone force in a scolding fashion like I did. I again will state that I am not aware of why I was so frustrated, I assume it was a combination of irritating issues that could have been channeled out but at the same time couldn't. Perhaps it was that I was frustrated that you could do things that I could not, but even I am not sure of that; and I don't care even if you can or can't.
You have always treated me as an equal no matter what I did, no matter the scrutiny. You were unparrel friendly to me, something that I shrugged at. I just saw you as someone who was not stern enough or strict enough to make decisions; you seemed to dance around a topic but never really take sides, not even neutral. Maybe you just didn't care, but I sufficiently doubt that. I just wanted to help you, my goal was not to make you leave but just so you could become a better person.
All I can plead for now is that you forgive me and come back for the sake of the forum but more importantly your friends. What I did was wrong, you were scarred off the forum which was against my only duty as a mod. I am a failure to modship, but if I were to have one last wish is to have you come back. I never asked anyone to comeback after they quit, not even Peram. Key, Angel, Ghost, Kune, they all want you to comeback not just me, and that's not all. I will welcome you back with open arms, atone for what I did, never force you to change who you are (unless you want to of course).
So please, please Lloyd, come back.
EDIT: I forgot the retract option. If you change your vote just post here.
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