Conflicts of the heart.

[yureihime]

Let me ask you guys something that have been in my mind and heart for sometime. For a while now I've been in love with someone, a strong unyielding that I don't believe will ever disappear. I think about this person every mourning I wake up and I can't remove this person from my mind or heart. I want this person to know how much I love them but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of opening myself up this person because I don't want to come off as an obsessed person or overly clingy. Another thing is this person is seeing someone else. I'm afraid if I do reveal these feeling fully it may cause conflict with that relationship or this person might avoid me because of my feelings. I... don't know what to do. I want to tell this person how I feel but so many things are uncertain. Should I tell this person or should I struggle to keep these feeling inside?

TBH I'm probably the most pathetic person in the world. I don't have an desires or even a path for my life. No goals, no dreams... nothing. I'm simply living just to live. I remember in kindergarten when the teacher asked the class what they wanted to be when they grew up. Some wanted to be a doctor, a mechanic, a soldier and all sorts of neat stuff but me.... I couldn't think of a single thing I wanted to become. Even to this day, I can't answer the question that teacher asked me that day. The world seems to dull and boring to me, nothing seems to bring me any joy. It's like my heart is a bucket with a giant hole at the bottom. No matter how much love and joy is poured into it, it never fills. This person I love is different though.

Its like whenever this person gives me love and attention I can feel something. It's almost like she is slowly fixing the hole in m heart. It makes me so happy that someone may exactly be able to heal this wound I have.... I want to make this person happy. I love them and I love they love me too. I want to open up to this person fully without any fear to hold me back or hesitate. I want to love this person forever. I feel like this person completes me. Like it gives me a purpose to live on and do something with my life... Idk... What do you guys think I should do?

[Angel]

Hmm.. maybe I might be able to help a little. Who knows.

There are so many things that go into a relationship, most of them being the most complicated things a person could ever feel in his or her life. Love is one of the feelings that is almost impossible to pin down, get rid of, or change.

The person you are thinking about confessing to might have her own feelings. Sometimes you just have to take the plunge and take a risk. Yes, you mentioned the girl that you care for has a pre-existing relationship.. but sometimes things can change.. or some things can be messed with. Nothing is set in stone, and sometimes people are adaptable.. or somethings things can work out. What's most important in life is to never give up on yourself or your feelings, and to live life without regrets. If you have a chance to make yourself happy, you should always go for it.

If she is someone in important she would never push you away for feeling how you feel inside. Someone who loves you should always love who you are, and how you feel.. no matter what that is. People who really care for each other will try their hardest to come up with the best compromise.. and never give up till they find out what to do.

And if you really feel the way you do, maybe she already will know. Just saying.

But you should get other advise too.

[kunekune]

I honestly cannot think of anyone who would throw away the love of another if it is sincere and pure. If she truly cares for you then telling her your feelings will bring more good than you could imagine. I wish you the best of luck with that ^^b

Eventually you may find your niche in life, I mean I know people in college who are still undecided on their majors and have no idea what to do. But in the end they find a way and a place where they belong. Just dabble in a few things from all over and when you find one that is fun run with it. Are you enrolled in college? That could really help.

Good luck with everything Star! You'll succeed I know it!