Post by Angel on Apr 28, 2009 5:01:53 GMT -5
Intro! Yay! ♥
She wonders how many people will read this..
Well, diary.. I'm posting this because I really trust the people here.. and I was thinking how making a blog is really neat because people who are interested can really start to see how my day is going, what I'm going through in my life.. maybe start conversations and well.. spark friendships.
Also, maybe I'll get my own subboard in this section once I've made enough entries. [giggle] I do admit that that would be the cleaner and nicer way of doing things.. but if people want my posts littered all over Advanced General Discussion, then that's their choice. Especially since I'm sure I'll get copycats..
Basically, this is will focusing more on my time here on the forums, but I of course I'll sprinkle it with as much personal information and ponderings that I can. But I should warn everyone that there will be things that some people might find controversial, so that by reading it.. people might learn things about me they might otherwise not want to know.
Well, I think my intro is mostly up though, so I'm going to start writing in you now. I hope people start discussions with me in this thread though.. I want people to give me their thoughts.
Dear Forum Diary,
*sigh* Today has been a day of high and lows, to be honest. I woke up at 1:30pm I think, which is not the time I really want to wake up.. but my "sister" [she's not really my sister, just spiritually] really wanted to talk to me till the wee early hours of the morning [6am!] so.. what can you do? Here I am writing this actually at 4:30 am and she isn't around, so I probably shouldn't always use her as an excuse. My sleep schedule is just eratic and spaztic and I probably should be working harder to fix it.
In fact, I probably should be working harder to fix a lot of my issues. Today's low's were about one special thing.. my inability to focus on a few choice things. My mind is so wild that I'll end up getting really easily distracted. I mean, I'm talking already to usually 10+ people at the same time, and then I'm usually just idlely skimming through the most 10 most recent posts, looking for anything to chat about or talk about around the place.
Which makes me wonder, how do people search on the forum? I guess I know what my first poll is going to be.. [giggle, make sure to vote!]
Well, back to the issue. I just can't stay focused on anything really. It seems impossible for me to RP, chat on the c-box, post, listen to music, staff, talk on MSN, and everything else all at once.
I mean, I really feel like I let down some friends today.. like Ghost. I know I didn't in their eyes.. I know they don't blame or anything, but it hurts me when I can't entertain my friends. I'm a clingy girl and lately I feel some of my friends getting distant, being more friendly with others, paying me less attention. I don't want attention like a crazed obsessed girl, I just want enough.. talking to feel like the person enjoys my company. If I bore the person so much that they go somewhere else to actually find something to do.. then I feel like I failed my job as a friend to be there for them.
On some happier notes, I've been feeling more in tune with my little girl, which always makes me happy. I went through a few names for it on the forum.. Loli-chan♥ which I find really cute, but kinda worry people see me as a pervert when I use, so I finally settled back on Youjo and I added that my form is super cuddly right now! I'm totally open for hugs diary, so I hope you want one!
My profile kinda reflects this for me... it's Sailor Chibi-usa! She's my favorite.. by far of the Sailor Moon cast. I wanted to be her when I was little so much. She is in my eyes, EASILY the prettiest of the Sailor Scouts, and is a reflection of some of my childhood desire.
Food was interesting.. I'm really having trouble keeping my diet at times. I mean, I'm drinking things like V8 and water and such, but then I eat Poptarts and Popcorn so.. yeah. Oh, I was so angry when I found out that the sub bread me and Alexia bought got moldy! I mean, THAT WAS EXPENSIVE.. and we were looking forward to submarine sandwich day number 2.
[turns on CLOSER by Inoue Joe]
Oh, but I'm excited, I just realized I had another energy drink, so I guess I'm going to be up for a few more hours at least. I slept alot, I think maybe today might finally be the day I can get myself back on that good sleep schedule. Everything started looking up as the day went on.
I got my computer cleaned up, which is a good thing! I mean, it's full of all the avatars and pictures people on the forum have seen, plus about hundreds more. I finally deleted alot of them, organized my files, etc. etc. Everything is really clean and that really makes me happy..
*sigh* I started feeling my limitation today. I mean, my dream is to help all the people in the world that I can.. but I don't want to lose my friends in the process.. but do I have enouhg time for everyone I want to help? I mean.. I'm already so easily distracted by talking to the people I do.. how am I ever going to fit in more.. but I want to so much. I wish I could have some more time.. more energy.. I could pause time and do everything I want to do.. I would use it for good, I would use to to help everyone and never let anyone down.
But things like that are just dreams huh? I guess it's like this song says.. the closer you get to something, the tougher it is too see it.. or maybe that doesn't make that much sense.... *giggle*.. I don't know. I'm a silly girl.
Well, I think I'll give you a rest. I didn't say that much about my day, but I'll run out of ramblings sooner or later and just be all technical and boring.
Thanks for listening!
She wonders how many people will read this..
Well, diary.. I'm posting this because I really trust the people here.. and I was thinking how making a blog is really neat because people who are interested can really start to see how my day is going, what I'm going through in my life.. maybe start conversations and well.. spark friendships.
Also, maybe I'll get my own subboard in this section once I've made enough entries. [giggle] I do admit that that would be the cleaner and nicer way of doing things.. but if people want my posts littered all over Advanced General Discussion, then that's their choice. Especially since I'm sure I'll get copycats..
Basically, this is will focusing more on my time here on the forums, but I of course I'll sprinkle it with as much personal information and ponderings that I can. But I should warn everyone that there will be things that some people might find controversial, so that by reading it.. people might learn things about me they might otherwise not want to know.
Well, I think my intro is mostly up though, so I'm going to start writing in you now. I hope people start discussions with me in this thread though.. I want people to give me their thoughts.
Dear Forum Diary,
*sigh* Today has been a day of high and lows, to be honest. I woke up at 1:30pm I think, which is not the time I really want to wake up.. but my "sister" [she's not really my sister, just spiritually] really wanted to talk to me till the wee early hours of the morning [6am!] so.. what can you do? Here I am writing this actually at 4:30 am and she isn't around, so I probably shouldn't always use her as an excuse. My sleep schedule is just eratic and spaztic and I probably should be working harder to fix it.
In fact, I probably should be working harder to fix a lot of my issues. Today's low's were about one special thing.. my inability to focus on a few choice things. My mind is so wild that I'll end up getting really easily distracted. I mean, I'm talking already to usually 10+ people at the same time, and then I'm usually just idlely skimming through the most 10 most recent posts, looking for anything to chat about or talk about around the place.
Which makes me wonder, how do people search on the forum? I guess I know what my first poll is going to be.. [giggle, make sure to vote!]
Well, back to the issue. I just can't stay focused on anything really. It seems impossible for me to RP, chat on the c-box, post, listen to music, staff, talk on MSN, and everything else all at once.
I mean, I really feel like I let down some friends today.. like Ghost. I know I didn't in their eyes.. I know they don't blame or anything, but it hurts me when I can't entertain my friends. I'm a clingy girl and lately I feel some of my friends getting distant, being more friendly with others, paying me less attention. I don't want attention like a crazed obsessed girl, I just want enough.. talking to feel like the person enjoys my company. If I bore the person so much that they go somewhere else to actually find something to do.. then I feel like I failed my job as a friend to be there for them.
[turns on 1,2,3 Day by Little Non]
On some happier notes, I've been feeling more in tune with my little girl, which always makes me happy. I went through a few names for it on the forum.. Loli-chan♥ which I find really cute, but kinda worry people see me as a pervert when I use, so I finally settled back on Youjo and I added that my form is super cuddly right now! I'm totally open for hugs diary, so I hope you want one!
My profile kinda reflects this for me... it's Sailor Chibi-usa! She's my favorite.. by far of the Sailor Moon cast. I wanted to be her when I was little so much. She is in my eyes, EASILY the prettiest of the Sailor Scouts, and is a reflection of some of my childhood desire.
Food was interesting.. I'm really having trouble keeping my diet at times. I mean, I'm drinking things like V8 and water and such, but then I eat Poptarts and Popcorn so.. yeah. Oh, I was so angry when I found out that the sub bread me and Alexia bought got moldy! I mean, THAT WAS EXPENSIVE.. and we were looking forward to submarine sandwich day number 2.
[turns on CLOSER by Inoue Joe]
Oh, but I'm excited, I just realized I had another energy drink, so I guess I'm going to be up for a few more hours at least. I slept alot, I think maybe today might finally be the day I can get myself back on that good sleep schedule. Everything started looking up as the day went on.
I got my computer cleaned up, which is a good thing! I mean, it's full of all the avatars and pictures people on the forum have seen, plus about hundreds more. I finally deleted alot of them, organized my files, etc. etc. Everything is really clean and that really makes me happy..
*sigh* I started feeling my limitation today. I mean, my dream is to help all the people in the world that I can.. but I don't want to lose my friends in the process.. but do I have enouhg time for everyone I want to help? I mean.. I'm already so easily distracted by talking to the people I do.. how am I ever going to fit in more.. but I want to so much. I wish I could have some more time.. more energy.. I could pause time and do everything I want to do.. I would use it for good, I would use to to help everyone and never let anyone down.
But things like that are just dreams huh? I guess it's like this song says.. the closer you get to something, the tougher it is too see it.. or maybe that doesn't make that much sense.... *giggle*.. I don't know. I'm a silly girl.
Well, I think I'll give you a rest. I didn't say that much about my day, but I'll run out of ramblings sooner or later and just be all technical and boring.
Thanks for listening!
Angel♥
