Post by The Legendary Simple Starfish on Feb 6, 2010 21:43:16 GMT -5
I know I can never make up for my sins, my pile was already sky high, I basically added ten times the crap to it and wrote a big "Screw you" in it. I feel that if I could of turn back the clocks I would have told myself "What the heck are you thinking you dummy? These are your friends, like it or not, stop letting your anger, your inferiority complexity, and your darn negativity run your life. Who cares what people say to you, your dad can go shut up because he'll never understand. You're wasting away everything they've put time and love in, would you like it if people did it to you? Would you like it if someone broke your legs? No, no you would not; you would lose it right there and then and cry. Look at yourself in the mirror, and ask yourself it that's what you want to become."
Yet I comeback, but I’m doing it for my own sanity, and for those who still acknowledge me. It’s still pretty low of me, like -9000 low because I'm already lower than a traitor. But I just keep saying that I want to talk to my friends again, I want to share laughs no matter how much they resent me and use me as a tool. But on the other hand, if I had come back I felt it wouldn’t feel the same. The hostility, the irony, the torture. Only after heavy prompting did I cave in, I don’t feel great about it either, for those that dislike my return; I don’t blame ya.
I thought I was perma-banned for life, but the majority of the staff was very lenient to my case, and I can never repay that amount of gratitude and mercy. I just want to make amends with the people that were my friends whether they like it or not. I know I've pissed you guys off day in and day out, and that act of cowardliness puts me as a person worse than Blank. My mind has never been straight, if you want to know my personal story ask, but right now I think you all just assume I'm a slum bag who lives being the world's biggest jerk to his friends. I guess, because of what I did you're absolutely right.
When I look at myself in the mirror: I do not want to cry, I can not cry over what I did....but as I type this a few sparse tears were forming. What I did was wrong and should serve as what happens to you when corruption and jealousy take over your body. No one should ever do what I do, and no one should have ever experienced what I had done.
I don't like being accused of things I didn't do. You will never believe me, but I did not lock the cbox. Not that it matters any more. Everything, the way people acted around me, what people said, the smart alecking and bitching, it was tearing me apart. All this renewal and my own were pushed aside. Influences on my life as a whole have made me a cruel cynical person. If this were real life I would have never had the guts to do what I did, I barely say anything at all.
Most of this revolved around Ghost: the man who had destroyed my trust, as I did his own. We were battling back and fourth on and on, but I never should have dragged you into this mess. That was a selfish act of me, I was paranoid. Ghost was right and I was wrong.
Maybe it’s because I feel that no one really ever understood me and ever took me seriously. I felt I was a tool, a tool in a plot just for someone's own personal gain, but no need to yell at the dead. It was raw emotion, and whenever I wanted people to listen to me and pay me mind they just shrugged me off and ignored me. I felt people never do take me seriously, but must of all that people just saw me as a tool of their own amusement. I blame my randomosity, the one trait that may be positive that people can define me as. With it, people never took me seriously and yelled at me with words like "wtf" and "u suck”. Honestly deep down, I wasn't liking that, I don't like people yelling at me,I get enough of it as is with my family (if you want to know about it, talk to me privately) and makes me perform rash, thick minded actions. Whether you think it or not, there's a person on the other side of that screen you're yelling at, something I should have taken into consideration.
I don't blame you guys for hating me. I don't know why people use the word disappointed at all, ultimately it comes down to people being pissed as heck or they're not very mad at all, there's no room for disappointment. Tear me up, rip me, make a game where you throw darts at me (whatever poster you would use is a complete baffle to me). But as I look at this a months later, I really did find out who my real friends are; even some of the people that I was most angry with, thought that I should have blocked them instead. That really showed that no matter what happens that people will still be able to look at me and smile a little even for a moment. So thank you Kin, Angel, Bert, and Dobs, thank you so much.
Although I feel that I do need to break away from this place (ignoring prior events), I have dreams and goals that I want to achieve ahead of me in my life just like the late Snicket. I want to be able to grow up and laugh and smile knowing that I was able to have a time of my life and lived everyday like my last. A muffled pipe dream of mine (I actually do train everyday for this) is that I someday do make it to the Olympics, as a runner, and win. Perhaps go into journalism, maybe work in the embassies, heck even be a social worker. I'm not saying this to make you feel sympathetic, I'm saying this because I just wanted you to know that I'm a human who has set high goals for himself and rip myself to shreds when I cannot reach those goals. As hard as you may think I am on you, I am on myself, but if you want to know more ask me about it on AIM or MSN (not that you would want to, but it's a very personal matter, sorry).
As far as things go, I just want to tell all my friends, or those former, that I am truly sorry. I have greatly disappointed you and know forgiveness is out of the question. Exile me, ignore me, do whatever the heck you want, but I just want these people to know something, and know it well.
Dobs – I’d first like to thank you for posting this, I see your gonads are bigger than my own. You and Kin are basically the internet form of big brothers to me, and you’ve always been there to help me out with whatever shenanigans I get myself into. You introduced me to the most skankilicious music genre in the world, ska, and the awesomeness found insides the Reel Big Fish in your Streetlight. You’re bold, blunt, and someone I can always trust, even when you post pornos on the forum. You’re someone I’ve always been able to relate to and given me great advice that I couldn’t get from anyone else (not that I followed some of it and I don’t plan on a few “details” either). We’ve had our fights but when it came down to it you still accepted me as your friend, and for that I am always in your debt. Live free, Moarhead, and the silliness of you surpasses all. I’ll never forget you Dobs, no matter what you say or do. Either way, I just wanted you to know that you’ve been a great friend and your fly is undone.
Kin/Big Boss – The man of the hour and a man with no boss whatsoever, because he is the boss. Honest to goodness when you said you were surprised I hadn’t blocked you that blew my mind, because it should have been vice versa yet it didn’t happen. You and I have had our ups and downs, but with every low there was an even greater high. As it's all said ‘n’ done (I guess it is now) I still have to look back and smile through all the great times we had. For every console war there was an rpg of epicness. For every banning, there was a sense of brotherhood whenever the other was attacked. Whenever I was a jerk to you or you were a jerk to me, we still felt like best friends at the end of the day. I never gave you the needed respect you deserved, and you not blocking me here and going bonkers and just plain old exiling me shows who my real friends are. Bills Vs Pats, 360 Vs PS3, Everything Vs Nirvana, we had them all. Thank you so much for being the little big ass friend of my time here, long live Big Boss!
Angel – Unanimously the nicest, kindest, warm hearted member here. A true human if I were to meet one, a bit idealistic but hey nothing wrong with that. You’re a polite, kind, generous, and loving person that goes the extra mile to help others. You helped me discover who I was in a sense and now know why people never understood me: because I was so closed off because my need to not show weakness. Thank you for helping me discover who one of my real friends was: you. No matter what I said, no matter what I did, you forgive me. Angel you are quite the saint, not perfect, but if you were perfect that would have been a little creepy, and would have meant that you knew all the lyrics to every single Aerosmith song in the entire universe. I’m sorry for any wrong I’ve done to you over the course of your existence, and for getting into heated arguments. Also, go------------- Cardinals!
Cell – I know you have a great deal to be mad at me, and I do not see you talking to me anytime soon. Even so, I really do hope that you can accept my apology and everything I’ve done to you in the past few days, you’ve helped me a lot with random questions (which most will remain disclosed) and just been a fun guy to hang around with. Your cursing wasn’t really much of a problem with me I guess, I sort of got used to it, and the blasts up the buttocks. Anyhow, I just hope that you can forgive me for anything and everything I have done. I know I can’t give you back the time you spent on your characters and the rpg, but I know I can at least give you back the good things of LGN back.
Bert – Ah Bert, so painfully correct even I thought you could be a bit of a pain in the rear. I admire you for handling situations a heck of a lot better than I ever could, and you may be the world’s greatest troll. Thank you for not blocking me despite what blasphemy I committed, you earned yourself quite a bit of righteousness. You always Keep Your Self Alive and always give me Somebody to Love with your Queen antics that are like a Bat Out of Hell that’s gone by time the Canadian Sun rises above the clouds to the north and the jet stream that brings endless storms of Digimon and horrific movies like Superman 3 (parody of his is hilarious by the way, plug plug) and Meet the Spartans. He is the Bert of Hilarity, the man who scores the point to win the argument, had the beastly storm trooper avatar I have ever seen, the hilarious author that defeated the dreaded pool noodle, and most of all my friend.
Smashbro – You and Sharpay were the two nicest members here by far (with the exception of Angel that goody two shoes).You’ve got a great taste in music (AAR all the way) and sense of humor. You and Snicket are legends of the roleplaying art, and I hope for success and the utmost happiness with whatever you do down the road no matter what it be, writing or in robotics. And most importantly, no matter what, don’t leave; you send the forum into another national tailspin!
Megatailsguyofgeniuswithshadowavatar – Words can not describe how epic you are good sir, just to let you know.
SLE – A man of three letters, and really mature considering his age. No hard feelings on ya whatsoever man. I know we never got to talk much, because I think every time I talked to you I made you feel awkward as heck. Even so, you were quite a random fellow, and really did deserve the title of “The Legendary SLEaman”.
Fredo – Most even headed guy I’ve met here. I think I could throw a barrel of monkeys at you and you’d only shrug and clean the poo off your shoes. I apologize for anything you may have lost from my actions. I hope you continue to have fun here, and personally, you’d make a good mod here in my opinion. But you probably wouldn’t want it, let alone get approved by someone like me. But thanks for everything and always putting up with my nonsense.
NBA – Ah, that one normal person hear who likes basketball (praise Jeremiah). I honestly think you’ve come along way from what you once were, which was sort of a mega noob no offense, to a masterful signature maker and had good taste in boo-I mean sports icons.
Brian – Thank you Brian for giving me the opportunity for joining this site in the first place and giving me a promotion to wire frame way back when. I know we never talked much, mainly because you’re mostly a myth, but thanks for keeping the site up long past your time. A real legend.
Jukan – I apologize that I acted so cynical and arrogant toward you. My critiquing of you was ridiculous and malicious on my behalf, and I formerly apologize that what I said was in the wrong and you were in the right. Thank you for being the bigger man. You were the true pioneer to the rpg here, and taught most of us how to role-play, you deserve major props for that. I actually do wish I could have got to know you a little better, but what can ya do?
Otacon/Mike – I’m sorry for the hard feelings I showed towards you. It wasn’t really for you that I just seemingly went off at you just because you yelled at KoD. What can I say, I don’t like it when (certain) friends of me are picked on or threatened. I went a bit too far, you didn’t deserve it, my apologies (see, there’s a theme here). Basically what I said to Maria, I hope you keep showing up and have fun around here.
KoD – Even though you quit I think you deserved some words because I never formerly said good bye. Sorry I didn’t treat you with respect when you left, because I did think you would come back, but I guess not. Even so, thanks for being there, and you’re really good at making videos; odd, but good nonetheless.
Solid – My favorite right wing man on this site. Although I will always laugh at Sarah Palin, you were a decent guy, despite your conscience that Zelda is a rpg (keep thinking that). Unleash your inner Jay Leno, toss me a grenade full of abortion, and keep the party rolling good, great, all-mighty, west-side, hippopotamus, Solid, sir.
Kirby King – You’re one of the bravest people I’ve ever known. I’m sorry about what happened in the war, and you have my condolences. Fight on soldier, and be the real king you are.
Key – It’s good to see you around again, and it appears you’ve changed a little; which is a good thing. I just hope you keep your act together, don’t shy away when people give you advice; we want to help you. We’re all in this together (haha, High School Musical, haha) from the end to the beginning.
Eiron – Master of Master Empires of Elephants Eiron, Son of Politics. You’re such an individual that always has brilliant new ideas and is ever so subtle in his approach. You’ve always treated me well, I don’t think you’ve ever said anything harsh about me (or at least to my face) and for that I praise you.
Stif – I really wonder where I’d be without you. Your strange Luna Lovegood obsession and cynical comments always leave me laughing. Although I will never trust Paul McCartney, and poor Ringo has been reduced to singing the “Na-na’s”, your personality and sarcasm will never be forgotten. And as the sun set on a moonlight night, and the grass slowly waved, I stood at the tree and shouted: “Stifmanhaveabanna!”
Lloyd – I still cannot make up for what I did to you, Lloyd. I scared you off the forum, I spied on you, I did so many things that are contemptible and should have me removed from the forum for good. Yet, you forgave me. Your courage and willingness to forgive and forget is unbelievable, I wish I could be that generous. I’m overjoyed that you came back, even though it was after I did, it doesn’t matter. I’m just happy that you came back and weren’t permanently frightened away from here. You have my most sincere thanks, and I hope we get to talk again soon.
MM – It’s a him-Mario! You always felt like a little bro to me (that’s a good thing) and it made me feel that my actions don’t go unnoticed, that younger aged members can be influenced by my actions to varying degrees. I always had fun playing Halo Wars with you, and you held the line quite well when I had to leave for over twenty or so minutes, which is quite an accomplishment against two other competent players. Gotta love the Hornet rush. Thanks for a good friend, you’re gonna go far man, I know it.
Star – Ironically, I didn’t end up on your “People who really piss me off” list. I laugh epically. Anyhow, I’m sorry that I was distant with you and of recent, you didn’t know any better than anyone else did about who locked the cbox or not. I wish I could have got to know you a little better, you were actually quite humorous, even your boobilicious avatars.
Devaux - *tires not to say anything random, because you won’t appreciate it* Sorry I was obnoxious to you before, if I was annoying you should have just said so instead of just ignoring it or being so illusive about it. I remember when we battled the evil forces of PETA and Ingrid the terrorist with Piano and Johnny Park. Good times, I just sort of wish they hadn’t gone away. I don’t know why you’re acting the way you are, all I want you to know is that you’re a great friend to have. You’re a man who does more listening than talking (as far as I know), you let your actions speak for yourself, and you’re always helping out: never let others force you to think differently.
Kune – I know you still have sour feelings about me, but I’m willing to make up for what I did. If there’s anything I can do to change your mind I’ll do it, I don’t want people giving me death stares across the cbox because I’m here. I kind of wish I got to know you better before I left, I probably would have had a better lasting impression on you. From what I’ve seen you have a very good taste in music *loves Foreplay and old school rock to death* I hope you’re willing to put away any feelings you had for me, I’m trying to do the same for everyone in general, but I respect your decision and furthermore actions nevertheless.
Steele – His name is Steele, he keeps it real, he likes a good meal, when it’s with a seal. He flies sky high, when the end is nigh. He plays Halo, but I wouldn’t call him a pro, but he’s never low, on the scoreboard yo. He jumps in the air and he does summersaults, while I’m sitting there drinking a Vault. When we party hardy in our big Warthog, we never stop gunning till we kill the bog. I’ve got the wheel, and he’s got the rear, I drink the beer and he throws the bears. He approves of tacos when I’m cooking, and selling off POSTYS when no one’s looking. He took a stairway to heaven, and rode a Led Zeppelin; he’s got eleven fingers and big ol’ penguin. But when it’s all said and done, and the war is won, we set back and relax in Florida sun………while singing the camp-camp fire song.
Ghost – I honestly don’t know how you do it. Being a smooth operator, always keeping people in line (well, you try), people could learn a lot about you. You always seem to cater your own needs while catering to others, and have colorful solutions to it I might add. You’re their very everyone, you even have random conversations with me, which most people flee from me and avoid that kind of conversation because of my logic. You may not be my best friend, but you’re someone that anyone can trust, people should aspire to be like you (minus Brad Paisley). If it weren’t for you and Kin (for the most part) I would not be back here, hopefully no one will beat you up because I said that. Even so, thank you for always being reliable; I take back everything I said about you before. People get angry, they don’t think straight, and make rash decisions. Everyone is human, you just appear to one of the more humane ones about it.
I also want to give a shout out to Mitch, Littlemac, Snicket, Mvpguy, Falcoman/Falcomediat, to anyone else I missed. As for the sneaky one known as Peram, you can catch us on our tour known as the Redemption of Metal, starting ten minutes ago.
This is a matter that words can not heal, but actions. If accepted back here, I pledge to aid the forum in whatever way I can. The place has been sitting idle for too long, which is why I’m going to openly suggest that I take over the POSTYS. I know you guys are still irked about me, and me coming back like a traitor does not help that, but Dobs has left the POSTYS in stand still; even I at least kept them active at this point in time. I will stick with most of Dobs/your suggestions (except the camera thing, probably can’t do that) if accepted. I’ll advertise on proboards and elsewhere, gaining affiliates, so people will join our site. I know I’m not in the position to make offers, but I want to help this place out and finish what I started.
I can’t say enough how stupid I was for the way I acted; and more so how long it took for me to complete this. I truly hope you guys understand what I’m accepting, and spare me from exile. If you do, I will be in your debt. If not, then I understand. Go ahead, and let out everything you have to say to me. I do not want you to hold any negativity back that you may have for me; that is how I ended up committing my acts in the first place, because I couldn’t let go and let it all out. You’re not alone, and I’ll work to the best of my ability to understand you all, even if that means getting made fun of. I have to get over my paranoia, for myself, and for my friends. I’m going to go out there, and give it all; and let my name no longer suffer from the taint I expelled upon myself. For this, I will never forget.
Yet I comeback, but I’m doing it for my own sanity, and for those who still acknowledge me. It’s still pretty low of me, like -9000 low because I'm already lower than a traitor. But I just keep saying that I want to talk to my friends again, I want to share laughs no matter how much they resent me and use me as a tool. But on the other hand, if I had come back I felt it wouldn’t feel the same. The hostility, the irony, the torture. Only after heavy prompting did I cave in, I don’t feel great about it either, for those that dislike my return; I don’t blame ya.
I thought I was perma-banned for life, but the majority of the staff was very lenient to my case, and I can never repay that amount of gratitude and mercy. I just want to make amends with the people that were my friends whether they like it or not. I know I've pissed you guys off day in and day out, and that act of cowardliness puts me as a person worse than Blank. My mind has never been straight, if you want to know my personal story ask, but right now I think you all just assume I'm a slum bag who lives being the world's biggest jerk to his friends. I guess, because of what I did you're absolutely right.
When I look at myself in the mirror: I do not want to cry, I can not cry over what I did....but as I type this a few sparse tears were forming. What I did was wrong and should serve as what happens to you when corruption and jealousy take over your body. No one should ever do what I do, and no one should have ever experienced what I had done.
I don't like being accused of things I didn't do. You will never believe me, but I did not lock the cbox. Not that it matters any more. Everything, the way people acted around me, what people said, the smart alecking and bitching, it was tearing me apart. All this renewal and my own were pushed aside. Influences on my life as a whole have made me a cruel cynical person. If this were real life I would have never had the guts to do what I did, I barely say anything at all.
Most of this revolved around Ghost: the man who had destroyed my trust, as I did his own. We were battling back and fourth on and on, but I never should have dragged you into this mess. That was a selfish act of me, I was paranoid. Ghost was right and I was wrong.
Maybe it’s because I feel that no one really ever understood me and ever took me seriously. I felt I was a tool, a tool in a plot just for someone's own personal gain, but no need to yell at the dead. It was raw emotion, and whenever I wanted people to listen to me and pay me mind they just shrugged me off and ignored me. I felt people never do take me seriously, but must of all that people just saw me as a tool of their own amusement. I blame my randomosity, the one trait that may be positive that people can define me as. With it, people never took me seriously and yelled at me with words like "wtf" and "u suck”. Honestly deep down, I wasn't liking that, I don't like people yelling at me,I get enough of it as is with my family (if you want to know about it, talk to me privately) and makes me perform rash, thick minded actions. Whether you think it or not, there's a person on the other side of that screen you're yelling at, something I should have taken into consideration.
I don't blame you guys for hating me. I don't know why people use the word disappointed at all, ultimately it comes down to people being pissed as heck or they're not very mad at all, there's no room for disappointment. Tear me up, rip me, make a game where you throw darts at me (whatever poster you would use is a complete baffle to me). But as I look at this a months later, I really did find out who my real friends are; even some of the people that I was most angry with, thought that I should have blocked them instead. That really showed that no matter what happens that people will still be able to look at me and smile a little even for a moment. So thank you Kin, Angel, Bert, and Dobs, thank you so much.
Although I feel that I do need to break away from this place (ignoring prior events), I have dreams and goals that I want to achieve ahead of me in my life just like the late Snicket. I want to be able to grow up and laugh and smile knowing that I was able to have a time of my life and lived everyday like my last. A muffled pipe dream of mine (I actually do train everyday for this) is that I someday do make it to the Olympics, as a runner, and win. Perhaps go into journalism, maybe work in the embassies, heck even be a social worker. I'm not saying this to make you feel sympathetic, I'm saying this because I just wanted you to know that I'm a human who has set high goals for himself and rip myself to shreds when I cannot reach those goals. As hard as you may think I am on you, I am on myself, but if you want to know more ask me about it on AIM or MSN (not that you would want to, but it's a very personal matter, sorry).
As far as things go, I just want to tell all my friends, or those former, that I am truly sorry. I have greatly disappointed you and know forgiveness is out of the question. Exile me, ignore me, do whatever the heck you want, but I just want these people to know something, and know it well.
Dobs – I’d first like to thank you for posting this, I see your gonads are bigger than my own. You and Kin are basically the internet form of big brothers to me, and you’ve always been there to help me out with whatever shenanigans I get myself into. You introduced me to the most skankilicious music genre in the world, ska, and the awesomeness found insides the Reel Big Fish in your Streetlight. You’re bold, blunt, and someone I can always trust, even when you post pornos on the forum. You’re someone I’ve always been able to relate to and given me great advice that I couldn’t get from anyone else (not that I followed some of it and I don’t plan on a few “details” either). We’ve had our fights but when it came down to it you still accepted me as your friend, and for that I am always in your debt. Live free, Moarhead, and the silliness of you surpasses all. I’ll never forget you Dobs, no matter what you say or do. Either way, I just wanted you to know that you’ve been a great friend and your fly is undone.
Kin/Big Boss – The man of the hour and a man with no boss whatsoever, because he is the boss. Honest to goodness when you said you were surprised I hadn’t blocked you that blew my mind, because it should have been vice versa yet it didn’t happen. You and I have had our ups and downs, but with every low there was an even greater high. As it's all said ‘n’ done (I guess it is now) I still have to look back and smile through all the great times we had. For every console war there was an rpg of epicness. For every banning, there was a sense of brotherhood whenever the other was attacked. Whenever I was a jerk to you or you were a jerk to me, we still felt like best friends at the end of the day. I never gave you the needed respect you deserved, and you not blocking me here and going bonkers and just plain old exiling me shows who my real friends are. Bills Vs Pats, 360 Vs PS3, Everything Vs Nirvana, we had them all. Thank you so much for being the little big ass friend of my time here, long live Big Boss!
Angel – Unanimously the nicest, kindest, warm hearted member here. A true human if I were to meet one, a bit idealistic but hey nothing wrong with that. You’re a polite, kind, generous, and loving person that goes the extra mile to help others. You helped me discover who I was in a sense and now know why people never understood me: because I was so closed off because my need to not show weakness. Thank you for helping me discover who one of my real friends was: you. No matter what I said, no matter what I did, you forgive me. Angel you are quite the saint, not perfect, but if you were perfect that would have been a little creepy, and would have meant that you knew all the lyrics to every single Aerosmith song in the entire universe. I’m sorry for any wrong I’ve done to you over the course of your existence, and for getting into heated arguments. Also, go------------- Cardinals!
Cell – I know you have a great deal to be mad at me, and I do not see you talking to me anytime soon. Even so, I really do hope that you can accept my apology and everything I’ve done to you in the past few days, you’ve helped me a lot with random questions (which most will remain disclosed) and just been a fun guy to hang around with. Your cursing wasn’t really much of a problem with me I guess, I sort of got used to it, and the blasts up the buttocks. Anyhow, I just hope that you can forgive me for anything and everything I have done. I know I can’t give you back the time you spent on your characters and the rpg, but I know I can at least give you back the good things of LGN back.
Bert – Ah Bert, so painfully correct even I thought you could be a bit of a pain in the rear. I admire you for handling situations a heck of a lot better than I ever could, and you may be the world’s greatest troll. Thank you for not blocking me despite what blasphemy I committed, you earned yourself quite a bit of righteousness. You always Keep Your Self Alive and always give me Somebody to Love with your Queen antics that are like a Bat Out of Hell that’s gone by time the Canadian Sun rises above the clouds to the north and the jet stream that brings endless storms of Digimon and horrific movies like Superman 3 (parody of his is hilarious by the way, plug plug) and Meet the Spartans. He is the Bert of Hilarity, the man who scores the point to win the argument, had the beastly storm trooper avatar I have ever seen, the hilarious author that defeated the dreaded pool noodle, and most of all my friend.
Smashbro – You and Sharpay were the two nicest members here by far (with the exception of Angel that goody two shoes).You’ve got a great taste in music (AAR all the way) and sense of humor. You and Snicket are legends of the roleplaying art, and I hope for success and the utmost happiness with whatever you do down the road no matter what it be, writing or in robotics. And most importantly, no matter what, don’t leave; you send the forum into another national tailspin!
Megatailsguyofgeniuswithshadowavatar – Words can not describe how epic you are good sir, just to let you know.
SLE – A man of three letters, and really mature considering his age. No hard feelings on ya whatsoever man. I know we never got to talk much, because I think every time I talked to you I made you feel awkward as heck. Even so, you were quite a random fellow, and really did deserve the title of “The Legendary SLEaman”.
Fredo – Most even headed guy I’ve met here. I think I could throw a barrel of monkeys at you and you’d only shrug and clean the poo off your shoes. I apologize for anything you may have lost from my actions. I hope you continue to have fun here, and personally, you’d make a good mod here in my opinion. But you probably wouldn’t want it, let alone get approved by someone like me. But thanks for everything and always putting up with my nonsense.
NBA – Ah, that one normal person hear who likes basketball (praise Jeremiah). I honestly think you’ve come along way from what you once were, which was sort of a mega noob no offense, to a masterful signature maker and had good taste in boo-I mean sports icons.
Brian – Thank you Brian for giving me the opportunity for joining this site in the first place and giving me a promotion to wire frame way back when. I know we never talked much, mainly because you’re mostly a myth, but thanks for keeping the site up long past your time. A real legend.
Jukan – I apologize that I acted so cynical and arrogant toward you. My critiquing of you was ridiculous and malicious on my behalf, and I formerly apologize that what I said was in the wrong and you were in the right. Thank you for being the bigger man. You were the true pioneer to the rpg here, and taught most of us how to role-play, you deserve major props for that. I actually do wish I could have got to know you a little better, but what can ya do?
Otacon/Mike – I’m sorry for the hard feelings I showed towards you. It wasn’t really for you that I just seemingly went off at you just because you yelled at KoD. What can I say, I don’t like it when (certain) friends of me are picked on or threatened. I went a bit too far, you didn’t deserve it, my apologies (see, there’s a theme here). Basically what I said to Maria, I hope you keep showing up and have fun around here.
KoD – Even though you quit I think you deserved some words because I never formerly said good bye. Sorry I didn’t treat you with respect when you left, because I did think you would come back, but I guess not. Even so, thanks for being there, and you’re really good at making videos; odd, but good nonetheless.
Solid – My favorite right wing man on this site. Although I will always laugh at Sarah Palin, you were a decent guy, despite your conscience that Zelda is a rpg (keep thinking that). Unleash your inner Jay Leno, toss me a grenade full of abortion, and keep the party rolling good, great, all-mighty, west-side, hippopotamus, Solid, sir.
Kirby King – You’re one of the bravest people I’ve ever known. I’m sorry about what happened in the war, and you have my condolences. Fight on soldier, and be the real king you are.
Key – It’s good to see you around again, and it appears you’ve changed a little; which is a good thing. I just hope you keep your act together, don’t shy away when people give you advice; we want to help you. We’re all in this together (haha, High School Musical, haha) from the end to the beginning.
Eiron – Master of Master Empires of Elephants Eiron, Son of Politics. You’re such an individual that always has brilliant new ideas and is ever so subtle in his approach. You’ve always treated me well, I don’t think you’ve ever said anything harsh about me (or at least to my face) and for that I praise you.
Stif – I really wonder where I’d be without you. Your strange Luna Lovegood obsession and cynical comments always leave me laughing. Although I will never trust Paul McCartney, and poor Ringo has been reduced to singing the “Na-na’s”, your personality and sarcasm will never be forgotten. And as the sun set on a moonlight night, and the grass slowly waved, I stood at the tree and shouted: “Stifmanhaveabanna!”
Lloyd – I still cannot make up for what I did to you, Lloyd. I scared you off the forum, I spied on you, I did so many things that are contemptible and should have me removed from the forum for good. Yet, you forgave me. Your courage and willingness to forgive and forget is unbelievable, I wish I could be that generous. I’m overjoyed that you came back, even though it was after I did, it doesn’t matter. I’m just happy that you came back and weren’t permanently frightened away from here. You have my most sincere thanks, and I hope we get to talk again soon.
MM – It’s a him-Mario! You always felt like a little bro to me (that’s a good thing) and it made me feel that my actions don’t go unnoticed, that younger aged members can be influenced by my actions to varying degrees. I always had fun playing Halo Wars with you, and you held the line quite well when I had to leave for over twenty or so minutes, which is quite an accomplishment against two other competent players. Gotta love the Hornet rush. Thanks for a good friend, you’re gonna go far man, I know it.
Star – Ironically, I didn’t end up on your “People who really piss me off” list. I laugh epically. Anyhow, I’m sorry that I was distant with you and of recent, you didn’t know any better than anyone else did about who locked the cbox or not. I wish I could have got to know you a little better, you were actually quite humorous, even your boobilicious avatars.
Devaux - *tires not to say anything random, because you won’t appreciate it* Sorry I was obnoxious to you before, if I was annoying you should have just said so instead of just ignoring it or being so illusive about it. I remember when we battled the evil forces of PETA and Ingrid the terrorist with Piano and Johnny Park. Good times, I just sort of wish they hadn’t gone away. I don’t know why you’re acting the way you are, all I want you to know is that you’re a great friend to have. You’re a man who does more listening than talking (as far as I know), you let your actions speak for yourself, and you’re always helping out: never let others force you to think differently.
Kune – I know you still have sour feelings about me, but I’m willing to make up for what I did. If there’s anything I can do to change your mind I’ll do it, I don’t want people giving me death stares across the cbox because I’m here. I kind of wish I got to know you better before I left, I probably would have had a better lasting impression on you. From what I’ve seen you have a very good taste in music *loves Foreplay and old school rock to death* I hope you’re willing to put away any feelings you had for me, I’m trying to do the same for everyone in general, but I respect your decision and furthermore actions nevertheless.
Steele – His name is Steele, he keeps it real, he likes a good meal, when it’s with a seal. He flies sky high, when the end is nigh. He plays Halo, but I wouldn’t call him a pro, but he’s never low, on the scoreboard yo. He jumps in the air and he does summersaults, while I’m sitting there drinking a Vault. When we party hardy in our big Warthog, we never stop gunning till we kill the bog. I’ve got the wheel, and he’s got the rear, I drink the beer and he throws the bears. He approves of tacos when I’m cooking, and selling off POSTYS when no one’s looking. He took a stairway to heaven, and rode a Led Zeppelin; he’s got eleven fingers and big ol’ penguin. But when it’s all said and done, and the war is won, we set back and relax in Florida sun………while singing the camp-camp fire song.
Ghost – I honestly don’t know how you do it. Being a smooth operator, always keeping people in line (well, you try), people could learn a lot about you. You always seem to cater your own needs while catering to others, and have colorful solutions to it I might add. You’re their very everyone, you even have random conversations with me, which most people flee from me and avoid that kind of conversation because of my logic. You may not be my best friend, but you’re someone that anyone can trust, people should aspire to be like you (minus Brad Paisley). If it weren’t for you and Kin (for the most part) I would not be back here, hopefully no one will beat you up because I said that. Even so, thank you for always being reliable; I take back everything I said about you before. People get angry, they don’t think straight, and make rash decisions. Everyone is human, you just appear to one of the more humane ones about it.
I also want to give a shout out to Mitch, Littlemac, Snicket, Mvpguy, Falcoman/Falcomediat, to anyone else I missed. As for the sneaky one known as Peram, you can catch us on our tour known as the Redemption of Metal, starting ten minutes ago.
This is a matter that words can not heal, but actions. If accepted back here, I pledge to aid the forum in whatever way I can. The place has been sitting idle for too long, which is why I’m going to openly suggest that I take over the POSTYS. I know you guys are still irked about me, and me coming back like a traitor does not help that, but Dobs has left the POSTYS in stand still; even I at least kept them active at this point in time. I will stick with most of Dobs/your suggestions (except the camera thing, probably can’t do that) if accepted. I’ll advertise on proboards and elsewhere, gaining affiliates, so people will join our site. I know I’m not in the position to make offers, but I want to help this place out and finish what I started.
I can’t say enough how stupid I was for the way I acted; and more so how long it took for me to complete this. I truly hope you guys understand what I’m accepting, and spare me from exile. If you do, I will be in your debt. If not, then I understand. Go ahead, and let out everything you have to say to me. I do not want you to hold any negativity back that you may have for me; that is how I ended up committing my acts in the first place, because I couldn’t let go and let it all out. You’re not alone, and I’ll work to the best of my ability to understand you all, even if that means getting made fun of. I have to get over my paranoia, for myself, and for my friends. I’m going to go out there, and give it all; and let my name no longer suffer from the taint I expelled upon myself. For this, I will never forget.
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