Post by smashbro on Mar 29, 2009 16:18:48 GMT -5
<sigh>
I haven't been on much recently, and most of the time Iv'e been saying that it is because my parents recently found out about Facebook and I want to be careful.
But that's not entirely it.
Honestly...this site seems to be...fading from its original luster it had at the start. While it is true I have had less and less time online recently, whereas I would normally go to this site first, I have tended to go to Facebook first. So I could be spending a little more time on here, even though it is not much.
But why is this happening?
Do any of you remember (or even know) why I joined this site? Few of you are even left to remember it, but it was to make friends. I had just started high school, well, I was going into my sophmore year, and I didn't have very many friends, since all my old ones did not go to my school anymore, and I realized most of the friends I have are crappy ones. I came online to find a community, where I could have real friends, and fufil another dream of mine, to become important. I know it is a general thing, and some of you may not get it, but in the big scheme of things, I felt (and still feel) like I'm not important. Here I was finally able to start something like that, a world in which people looked up to me, people liked me, and where I was finally important: the rp.
Basically, this site had become the life I never had.
But now, things have changed in my town. I have a girlfriend, and a few friends I can really trust; friends who I can talk to. I've been hanging out with the more, and amoung those who are jerks, I've gotten to know them better and realized they are nice deep down at times. Some have even gotten to almost be good enough to be on a level I once had with everyone here.
The exact opposite has been happening on the site. People have been leaving, and the site is becomeing more populated. Those who I used to think I knew changed, and seem to be more domineering and wanting to do things their way instead of being one for all and all for one. It's becoming more distant from its original ideals and actions.
My rp posts have somewhat reflected that, with me splitting my posts between smashbro and X, two incredibly different personalities (I'll leave out the spoiler in case you haven't been paying attention or haven't realized it yet) and there is somewhat of a struggle between the two views. In the end the pull is towards smashbro, who is separate from the forumers.
Now, I would never leave this site, only partially due to my having a hard time letting things go. But I still won't be on as much as before.
I guess this thread will become a combo of Q&A about anything for me, and a plea to help me find more in this site, and reasons to be on more. I think I answered questions people acked me but if not please post any questions here.
I haven't been on much recently, and most of the time Iv'e been saying that it is because my parents recently found out about Facebook and I want to be careful.
But that's not entirely it.
Honestly...this site seems to be...fading from its original luster it had at the start. While it is true I have had less and less time online recently, whereas I would normally go to this site first, I have tended to go to Facebook first. So I could be spending a little more time on here, even though it is not much.
But why is this happening?
Do any of you remember (or even know) why I joined this site? Few of you are even left to remember it, but it was to make friends. I had just started high school, well, I was going into my sophmore year, and I didn't have very many friends, since all my old ones did not go to my school anymore, and I realized most of the friends I have are crappy ones. I came online to find a community, where I could have real friends, and fufil another dream of mine, to become important. I know it is a general thing, and some of you may not get it, but in the big scheme of things, I felt (and still feel) like I'm not important. Here I was finally able to start something like that, a world in which people looked up to me, people liked me, and where I was finally important: the rp.
Basically, this site had become the life I never had.
But now, things have changed in my town. I have a girlfriend, and a few friends I can really trust; friends who I can talk to. I've been hanging out with the more, and amoung those who are jerks, I've gotten to know them better and realized they are nice deep down at times. Some have even gotten to almost be good enough to be on a level I once had with everyone here.
The exact opposite has been happening on the site. People have been leaving, and the site is becomeing more populated. Those who I used to think I knew changed, and seem to be more domineering and wanting to do things their way instead of being one for all and all for one. It's becoming more distant from its original ideals and actions.
My rp posts have somewhat reflected that, with me splitting my posts between smashbro and X, two incredibly different personalities (I'll leave out the spoiler in case you haven't been paying attention or haven't realized it yet) and there is somewhat of a struggle between the two views. In the end the pull is towards smashbro, who is separate from the forumers.
Now, I would never leave this site, only partially due to my having a hard time letting things go. But I still won't be on as much as before.
I guess this thread will become a combo of Q&A about anything for me, and a plea to help me find more in this site, and reasons to be on more. I think I answered questions people acked me but if not please post any questions here.